Measure of Life...

I think it has been a long time since I put up my last blog.So there had been an impending need for this post.Been stuck up in a Pg coaching centre for obtaining post graduate course it was only natural for frustration to creep up in my life.I realised that I now lead a life which is now defined by the ranks i get, my value in life determined by the people in front of me.Being a doctor it is not even about how I deal with other lives or how I happy I feel about the loved ones around me.I feel my life has wilted away in the presence of inanimate guides and books which can offer no long lasting fulfillment in my life.I wonder when I can move on with my life and leave it on my terms.Iam tired of my mental state of happiness fluctuating according to the random ranks that get.I feel there is so much more value to my life.If today was my last day I would prefer it been spent with my loved friends,having a good laugh in perfect hapiness...Being a doctor I wont mind it if it was spent in service of others.But my entire life would have been meaningless if the best time of my life was spent with a few "cut-copy-paste" books.I guess Im not meant for this rat race which im running...